I move to Ohio State in 17 days.

I’m not really sure when this happened, but it sure did. 

I started my countdown at 200 and now here we are at 17. I just want to break down and cry. I’ve been talking about how ready I am to move out and get the fuck away from my mom and blah blah blah but I can’t help but wonder if I’m ready for this. It’s a huge step. 

I just want to make my mom proud. I want her to know that everything she’s doing for me is going to count for something in the future. I just want her to know that I’mk trying so hard to keep it together so neither of us fall apart. 

Sometimes I just worry that I’m only a kid and I’ll never be ready for this.

Well I guess it’s time to get ready, isn’t it? 

SO, the basic sum of the plot is…

college is going to be awesome. I may not have any money. But I’m going to have a lot of friends and a lot of fun. I already have so many friends from creeping on the OSU facebook page and our football ticket group… even on here (shoutout to my Buckeye followers! Esp. Amy and Morgan!)

To be honest, the last six or so years of my life have not been the most socially flattering, and I can’t wait to spread my wings and become a new me in college, and I know that it’ll happen for me. Roommates, lack of a social stigma based on past experiences, boys, a clean slate. Everything.

It’s hitting me now that in 35 days I will be starting not a new chapter in my life, but a whole new book in an entirely different language. I guess I’ll just have to figure it out as I go along. It’s a journey that I can’t wait to start.

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